All Hallows Eve

Winter approaches and tonight the face of season's end will dance upon the night's thin veil, it's lit from behind countenance a herald this year of a future perhaps more menacing to many each day. Yet today I woke up with a hopeful smile.

To many, Halloween has become merely another Hallmark Holiday, an event created merely to feed the monster of consumerism that has wormed it's way into every corner of modern culture.
Bags full of poison are collected by children, the very nature of the corn syrup and bleached sugar "candy" toxic, many adults lose themselves in a surge of faux rebellion, determined to throw off the shackles that they labor in the rest of the year but all too often simply accepting a different form of status quo imprisonment.

I have been guilty of this mindset myself in the past and will probably fall under it's sway in the future, but this year, I view it in a different manner. Tonight, I am going out into the dark physically un-costumed, but wearing a new soul that feels like a costume due to how long certain parts of it have been under wraps. You see, more than anything, my life has been one of change and I have only sped up in recent years, instead of slowing down and that lack of stability can have costs that are sometimes hard to bear.

Goals... such ephemeral creatures, but what value would they hold if easily caught? So much change have I seen in myself and sought out, when so many others have stilled and remained frozen in time. Sometimes I forget the value of that. For too often I look at what I have yet to achieve, the grand life changes far above me like mountain peaks and forget all of the small steps I have taken already that have brought me to that place of pause and rest that allows such contemplation. This Halloween, a few days after my first ever three day fast and a few months after spending a month alone in the wilderness, camping and hiking, I am more sure than ever of where I stand and where I must go and my costume shall be that new feeling, that I am still learning to wear...